In forty years of medical practice,” the great neurologist Oliver Sacks, “I have found only two types of non-pharmaceutical ‘therapy’ to be vitally important for patients…: music and gardens.”
Virginia Woolf, savaged by depression throughout and out of her life, arrived at herwhile walking in her garden.
“It came to me while picking beans, the secret of happiness,” the bryologist and Native American storyteller Robin Wall Kimmerer wrote in her.
But if modern gardening has a patron saint, it must be the English artist, filmmaker, and LGBT rights activist Derek Jarman (January 31, 1942–February 19, 1994).
In 1989, shortly after his HIV diagnosis and his father’s death, Jarman left the bustling pretensions of London for a simple life on the shingled shores of Kent. He took up residence in a former Victorian fisherman’s hut between an old lighthouse and a nuclear power plant on the headland of Dungeness, a newly designated conservation area. He named it Prospect Cottage, painted the front room a translucent Naples yellow, replaced the worn door with blue velvet curtains, and set about making a garden around the gnarled century-old pear tree rising from the carpet of violets as the larks living in the shingles sang high above him in the grey-blue English sky.
He collected some handsome sea-rounded flints washed up after a storm at low tide, staked them upright in the garden “like dragon teeth,” and encircled each with twelve small beach pebbles. These primitive sundials became his flower beds, into which he planted an excellent miniature wilderness of species not even half of which I, a growing gardener, have encountered — saxifrage, calendula, rue, camomile, Shirley poppy, Santolina, nasturtium, dianthus, purple iris, hare-bell, and his favorite: sea kale. (A gorgeous plant new to me, which I immediately researched, procured, and planted in my Brooklyn garden.)
As the seasons turned and his flowers rose, the AIDS plague felled his friends one by one; Jarman mourned loss after loss, then grounded himself again and again in the irrepressible life of soil and sprout and bud and bloom. His Victorian ancestors saw the garden asand it became his sanctuary of “extraordinary peacefulness” amid the deepest existential perturbations of death, his canvas for creation amid all the destruction.
The record of this creative healing adventure became Jarman’s( ) — part memoir and part memorial, reckoning and redemption, a homecoming to his first great love: gardening. The short near-daily entries emerge as a hybrid between Tolstoy’s , Rilke’s , and Thoreau’s .
On the last day of February, after planting lavender in a circle of stones he collected from the beach under the clear blue sky, he writes:
Apart from the nagging past — film, sex, and London — I have never been happier than last week. I look up and see the deep azure sea outside my window in the February sun, and today I saw my first bumble bee. Plated lavender and clumps of a red hot poker.
He is building a different garden of Eden on these windblown shores, living with a deadly disease while his friends — his kind, our kind — are dying of it in a world too indifferent to human suffering, too bedeviled by millennia of religion-fomented homophobia. Gardening becomes not only his salvation but his act of resistance:
Before I finish, I intend to celebrate our corner of Paradise, the part of the garden the Lord forgot to mention.
Acutely aware that he could finish any moment, that he could be the next to go, Jarman turns his garden into a processing ground for grief — personal grief, cultural grief, civilizational grief:
The wind calls my name, Prophesy!
Time is scattered, the past and the future, the future, past and present. Whole lives are erased from the book by the great dictator, the screech of the pen across the page, your name, Prophesy, your name!
But the ultimate gift of gardening is the way it concentrates and consecrates time, grounding the gardener in the present, both conscious of and undistracted by the ongoing cycles of seasonality stretching across all past and all future.
In the first week of March, Jarman arrives at what may be the greatest reward of gardening, evocative of poet Ross Gay’s lovely sentiment that time spent gardening isHe writes:
The gardener digs in another time, without past or future, beginning or end. A time that does not cleave the day with rush hours, lunch breaks, or the last bus home. As you walk in the garden, you pass into this time — the moment of entering can never be remembered. Around you, the landscape lies transfigured. Here is the Amen beyond the prayer.
I am reminded of the great Russian filmmaker Andrei Tarkovsky’s insight about the film, Jarman’s primary creative medium — that it’s raw material and gift to the viewer is time:I am also reminded of Seneca, writing two millennia earlier about — I have found few that better clarify the difference between the three than the quiet gardening lessons.
In the garden, Jarman discovers — or instead befriends — the most disquieting byproduct of time:. Half a century after his Nobel-winning compatriot Bertrand Russell , Jarman contemplates his new cottage life away from London’s familiar “traps of notoriety and expectation, collaboration and commerce, of fame and fortune,” and writes: